rainyday

I'm sure this is not your intent, but your posts are really not sitting well with me as I'm finding them borderline offensive. I'm fully aware of HIV testing information, and do not require said information bolded. Additionally, your mention of age ('Seems like this is something I should say to a 18 year old person, but I'm sure you are much older...') in your initial post above is entirely irrelevant and comes across as quite judgmental to me. Once again, perhaps this was not your intent but this is the impact your comments are leaving with me, and is the exact reason why some people are reluctant to come forward to share these types of experiences. I posted this information in the forum to share my experience, and also let others who may have had similar experiences know they are not alone. I respectfully ask that you reflect on this information and think twice before you make similar posts in the future.

Thanks for your empathetic response @Chuckball. I get tested regularly, and went for testing the day after the incident also.

I recently visited a masseur who checked all my boxes - his website indicated that his sessions incorporated both therapeutic and erotic elements, and I appreciated the thorough description of the service offerings provided on his site. I asked for a 90min therapeutic/erotic massage and booked accordingly. It all started out great - the perfect combination of caring, sensitive and strong touch. The appointment was at night, and the massage room (the guest bedroom in his apartment) was dark with mood lighting; I became comfortable on his massage table very quick as his touch was quite nurturing. After about 20mins, I could feel his penis touching my skin which I was okay with also as he asked if he could be nude upfront. It added to the eroticism of the massage. I noticed that he motioned his penis towards my face a few times, but I was not interested in oral so kept my mouth closed and turned my face in the other direction (I was on my stomach on the table). About 45-50 minutes into the session, he climbed on the massage table and started massaging my back with his entire body - it felt great. I could feel his penis rub against my ass, but it was a light touch so I did not think too much about it. Within a few seconds, however, he was inside me. My eyes opened wide and I froze - I didn't know what to do. I was in a state of shock that he entered me, but also that he was not using a condom. My head started to fill with inner dialogue - what should I do? Is this really happening? Should I say something? Did I miss that intercourse is part of the session? Did I miss this essential factor in the written description on his website? Has he been tested? Should I just keep quiet until he finishes? He offered soft moans in my ear, and he commented on how tight I was and that it felt amazing. He came a short-while later, and finished the session with a hot towel rub down. He offered to jerk me off, but I said I was okay. I showered once the session was over, and left his apartment in a state of nervousness and shame. As I walked to the parking lot, I wondered if I gave him the wrong impression. I was also in pain, like there had been some tearing or scaring of skin tissue around my ass. I just wanted to get home and go to bed. It's been a few months now, and although I crave the intimacy of a non-intercourse erotic massage, I'm still a bit cautious to proceed. I've gone back to the masseur's website a few times now to re-read his session descriptions - there is talk of an 'intimate journey', but that's it. I imagine my reaction to the session was atypical, in that the majority of his clients perhaps want/expect intercourse as part of their 'journey'. Anyway, thought I would share this experience. If anyone has anything similar they would like to share feel free to PM me.