Rejection hurts me so hard that I wrongly assume stuff all time. Unfortunately I was never able to entirely overcome certain aspects of my self-steem since my teenage years. You can say I'm still dealing with my demons.
The guys I like seem to be part of the 1% when it comes to looks (why did God make me so superficial in the first place?). They tend to be big, hairy, with handsome faces, big, with nice beards, great pecs, wide backs, butts on point, big, masculine, big, tall and big again as hell. At the clubs, these hot studs would ignore me or look at me in a way that makes think I'm just not their type. I'm not too sure. I'm very new to the scene. It really bothers me because I don't think I look bad. But my expectations are perhaps too high. Maybe I'm just assuming too much. I really want to shoot my shot but I'm so afraid to get ignored or rejected that I end up not trying at all.
I love this forum because you guys don't seem to sugarcoat stuff out of diplomacy. It's always interesting to read your posts even if I get attack. My question is genuine. Please try to be nice. Thanks.