tribute to Arpad listed on Daddy's Reviews

[tyro]

I don't always check the news section of Daddy's, but I'm glad I did today. At the very bottom of the page is a link to an article from Advocate.com. If you haven't read it yet, please do. You never know who your guardian angel might be.

Tyro

[+ Ace]

Hey Tyro;

I read that when I got in from an appt last night & RE reread it after seeing your post...

I've ALWAYS been a HUGE Arpad fan myself & (like everyone else) was and still am so sad about his death..In reading the op-ed piece it drove the point home that escorts are MORE than just the sum of their body parts. (at least the "good guys")...& Arpad was CLEARLY one of them!

[whipped guy]

I NEVER look at the news portion of the front page of the review site… NEVER! As if on autopilot I simply proceed to check out the reviews. However, today for some strange reason I scrolled down… and there it was… a familiar face… a face I had lusted after… but the face of someone I had never met. I saw those eyes that always seemed to have a sparkle in them… but now in retrospect seemed to be tinted with a certain amount of sadness. For some reason those eyes called out to me and beckoned me to read the article. I did so and like others I was deeply moved… As the article implies, Arpad may have chosen an unorthodox path in life… but even in that guise he certainly must have touched many individuals in quite a positive manner. Now when I look at photos of Arpad… and peer into those eyes… I will definitely recognize honesty, kindness, decency, sincerity, and integrity.

 

I am sure that we have all met such gentlemen in our travels though the world of escorting… and I often wonder how such respectable and principled individuals can choose a life that would seem, at least superficially, to represent the opposite of all they appear to be themselves. Who was it that said every person is our superior in one way or another? Well… On the surface many escorts are indeed our superior in one way… but something tells me that the experience that they have garnered in interacting with and comforting clients throughout the years has given them a special insight into the needs, wants, and desires of mankind in general. It has been said that a good escort knows what you need even before you know that you need it yourself. In the case of Arpad that probably was true on a multiplicity of levels. It is pitiful that someone was not there for Arpad to help him better deal with what ever it was that troubled him...

 

Sorry to be so philosophical and overly thoughtful about all this, but the narrative not only moved me, but reminded me of a few exceptional individuals that I have had the good fortune to meet over the years.

 

Ace is correct... the good one are indeed, "MORE than just the sum of their body parts".

[RexAll]

The whole suicide thing makes me upset as I'm sure it does most of you. I am going through the hardest period of my life right now- really starting 2 years ago- but intensifying since last May when I lost my job. I spent weeks- and still to some extent just lying around on the couch or my bed unable to see my way out of my predicament- because it affects me socially, emotionally- I've never been great with friends and now I'm so up I the air- don't know where I'll turn up- so can't even really attempt to make friends - and monetarily. I've had to break into my IRA twice- and am currently living on fumes. If a relative hasn't said that if things play out to the worse- I could come live with her in her one bedroom condo, I'd be even more lost than I am. And while I am barely dealing- not dealing with my own troubles - I look at Arpad- a guy to my mind who had everything, looks, endowment, physique, I mean even if he hasn't been a pornstar or an escort- people would have been drawn to him. And he wasn't just a pretty face- he was some type of engineer. Well I understand that while I am barely dealing with my hell- maybe Arpad's would have broken me completely like it did him. But it just upsets me that aside from my family- and they can give me mainly limited moral support not economic- but if so far as bad as I have felt, I have refrained so far from suicide- was there nothing that could have kept him from it too. One of the things that may keep me from it is how much it would hurt my family- because as mixed up as I am they still love me- and thy might consider they failed me. I wouldn't want that on my conscience. And I feel so bad for Arpad's friends and any family he has because I'm sure most of them are thinking, 'why didnt he come to me before doing it?' And there is no answer. And as for me. I don't think I will commit suicide. But I'm not sure how my life is ever going to straighten out or if I'll ever really be happy. And please save all the suggestions for therapy. I've done it before, I'm about to try again Saturday- but it's never really worked. In fact it makes me feel worse. It churns up feeling which have no resolution. As for antidepressants, I've been on trial of 3 of them. None of them did anything for my mood- and I'm not willing to put up with the side effects anymore.

 

Rex