You’re not the only one mate, I’ve been going to the same masseur for 4 years and even though I’m married and can never actually have anything with this guy, a part of me has this fantasy that I’m the kind of guy he would actually go for in real life even though I know I’m far from that. But for me our time even though it’s only a massage is something I look forward to every time I hire him, it’s a break from my real life I suppose. And even though In the moment with him it all feels so real I know that as soon as I leave his place it’s all over and he becomes just a figure in my mind.. I don’t think anything is wrong with having the fantasy but I often remind myself that it’s not real so I stay in reality and not get to attached.