It’s funny because I’m the same way. And I can honestly say that I’ve had great mileage every time. Except for the one time I actually made it clear that I wanted “erotic” and when he finished, I hadn’t. I was pretty annoyed. I didn’t quite understand where or what went wrong. But he liked me. Gave me the longest hug at the end, stared in my eyes, kissed me on the neck, and then said he hoped to see me again soon. Wtf was that?! He was hot, amazing massage, but I can’t get over that to book again.