I applaud you for doing what you did. If that was Jose's reaction to you soon afterwards, it confirms to me how deeply troubled he is. I lost my Mom during the height of COVID, forbidden to visit her as she lay dying in a rehab unable to eat by herself. I have to live with that after taking such good care of her at home until she fell. I can truly relate to how you feel. We have to recognize the issue and seek help if we can't deal with it on our own.