Glad you are feeling better. It is a tough lesson to learn & always remember: these are business transactions in a provider-client relationship, not a friendship. I know it must be tough dealing with this while still grieving. I applaud all the guys on here who have listened sensitively & encouraged you talk to others. No need to provide all the details, just talk about what you are feeling. Rejection is difficult to manage from the age at which we first become aware of it. Dealing with it & putting in perspective is therapeutic & healing experience. Best of luck.