Well said. I do not like being explosively turned on, as I am sure I would be with Georgie (I already am just from his MF pics) & then end up deflated. I love the relaxed & unwound feeling of a therapeutic massage from someone to whom I am not attracted, but I hate the drowning in my own hormones, blue-balled feeling when I get a therapeutic massage from someone to who totally turns me on, but doesn’t go beyond therapeutic.
It’s why I had to stop seeing one really good straight masseur. I thought I would finally be able to overcome my reactions, but I just kept on getting more & more turned on. He was nice about it, but it got to the point I’d walk in with a hard-on. It felt awkward & I could not torture myself again.