Loving someone comes with accountability regardless if it's mutual… especially when you are an adult and have lived some. To expect reciprocation is the ego… Loving and true love is growth. It should always be the head over heart, especially when it's under the agreement of an escort client situation and when there is a wife and kids involved… but it doesn't mean you can't learn how to feel and allow it fully. Allowing it fully doesn't mean love letters and pining.