nottheworst

As of the title, I have questions for both clients and providers. How could you separate the reality and delusional in boyfriend experience service? As a client, I really appreciate the boyfriend experience but I am not emotional intelligence person. I easily let me heart take control my mind and then the worst part occurs I could not completely separate between reality and the infatuation that experience brought. I became jealous, angry, judgmental when I knew he was with someone else, when I knew he could probably do tha same things that he did with me to someone else. I don’t blame anyone here, because he actually did a great job on providing that service and making me to fall for him. But sometimes I felt that he also had feelings for me but not as strong as mine. That is why I kept falling deeper and deeper until my whole life now is just surrounding him. I know I am a loser from the beginning but I just wanted someone that I can hold their hands till 60 and said we made it. Or maybe it shouldn’t have been him from the beginning. And about providers, may I ask how you feel after giving that kind of service? Did you ever force yourself or deign to please someone you don’t have affection for?

I also experienced something similar to most ppl here but maybe I ended up differently (or it was my decision to cure my heart). It has been a while since we first met. That was a summer night when everything in my life was on their trajectory, I decided to meet him who I admired long ago. We are about the same age. The first date was not that impressive to me or I could say he was not my cup of tea as I thought. However, after we talked, I knew more about him, I knew his stories and understood what he has been through. I felt for him. Someone may say I was too emotional or overthought everything. I must confess that yes I am but I am also practical and materialistic. I know what I am doing and I rarely let my heart decide my mind. I felt for him because I was somehow in his situations and somebody gave me a hand. At that moment, I just purely wanted to give him a hand. However, I did not foresee everything would become like this now. If you asked me whether I would regret or not, it would be no. If I had to choose again, I would still do the same. The thing here is the more times we met, the more I couldn't help my heart from falling for him. He was kind to me, and I knew sometime I was unreasonable and clingy. We had a fight but I made up. After that, we understood each other more. I used to ask him about our relationship, I knew I would not get the answer I wanted but some parts of me still had hope for it. He said he also liked me and I knew he meant it but maybe that was not enough for us to be together. I understood because that was also not my initial intention. I used to promise myself that after his life gets better, I will leave and I believe it is time for me to put myself first. It is just sad that we were together in the darkest time but could not after that. After all, I won't regret what I have done, all the times with him will be my most beautiful memory. He was the first person I have dated and maybe the last. We also did a lot of first things in my life, just unfortunately we could not end up together.

I like this line. I should have learned this sooner.

Guys, I am newbie here. Just like the title goes. I am curious of have you guys ever accidentally loved the escort you met? And how did it feel? Will you still support the escort you loved even though you knew that infatuation is hopeless?