I think you need to pause for a moment, then speak with your doctor. I believe you mentioned that your recent health issues involved a operation of some sort on your heart. Depression is a fairly common for individuals having a major operation.
Sorry to hear what happened. I always have my wallet out of site and no where to be quickly found. I have the fee (plus reasonable tip) for time, available but just out of sight. Should my hire find the fee money, that is all he is getting.