Hi everyone!
I hope everyone is great. I’m a first-time poster and I wanna apologize in advance If this post violates any norms, rules, or is otherwise against the spirit of the sight.
I’ll keep this as short as I can.
I’m about 44-year-old, previously considered heterosexual, recently divorced male. I’ve always dated women and have exclusively had sexual contact with women.
However, when I was 13, before I ever touched a woman, I sucked a friend’s cock. A couple of timew. And he sucked mine. But he only did me because I think he felt obligated. I like, really liked sucking his. And I kind of bugged him, a couple times, to keep letting me do it.
Thing is though, and maybe this sounds weird and maybe I’m just repressed, but I’ve always really really loved cocks the idea of them, watching them ejaculate, the idea of sucking one… But I’ve never particularly liked men, or the whole, I don’t know, idea of gayness. Besides the fucking. And the sucking. Especially the sucking. And, God, the fucking sounds divine.
I joke, but not really, because after doing the fucking for 30 years, the idea of kicking back my feet and being the fuckee for once sounds really nice you know?
So that went on for a while, and it kinda repressed to during my marriage, occasionally masturbated to gay porn, but that was the extent of it. Then after my separation, I began getting high, more than I used to, and I discovered 2 things: the urge to suck cock had become nearly impressible, especially when I smoke, and it was not with a really dirty fantasy of getting fucked raw by a huge, thick, uncut, cock.
Yeah, pretty specific for a straight dude huh? I know
For the record guys, I am not a troll acting out some idea of a stray guy goes gay fantasy. Real dude here, with a real question that’s been troubling me for some time.
Bottom, line, I wanna get laid. But what I don’t want I don’t think I can get in a bar, or even on Grindr or Scruff.
Basically, I’m picky as fuck. I’m a pretty good looking guy, 6”3’, all my teeth and shit, but 25 pounds are so bigger around the waist than I could be.
Also, I’m old as fuck did you see that? 44. I mean, if I’m being honest I’d love some 27 year-old to fuck me.
And what my fantasy is is this:
Height doesn’t matter so much, but I definitely want to a gym body, a real stud you know? Not too big on the muscles but cut as fuck. Lemgth I could truly care less about, but I want a girthy, thick cock, uncut with a mushroom head if possible, and while we’re fantasizing, they kind of cock that drips precum as soon as it gets hard; kinda dom, but not too dome, maybe into getting high too, but not a dealbreaker, Willing to be patient with/or even willing to fuck a virgin
Note: This one might not matter, because of my lifelong request to achieve the perfect prostate orgasm, I can now stick an unlubricated fire hydrant up my ass without grimacing.
Most of all — and I’m more than willing to show my very recent, full panel, all clean STI test — I also want somebody clean, somebody provably on prep, with mega mega bonus points if they know somebody who can slip me a dose or two of prep, aaaaaaaaaand — willing to fuck me raw. And cum inside me. And leave pretty much right after they cum inside me and not kiss me goodbye, … that’s about it. As far as requirements go, anyway.
Too much? Too much for Grindr anyway, right? That’s why I came here. Do you guys think I could find an escort who would fit the bill?
Any advice, suggestions, or thoughts you had would really be appreciated!
