Evolving Emotion…

[Vincent_Michael]

I have been doing allot of thinking as I always do lol and I hope you enjoy this reflection of my soul.

 

So here we go boys! A week of Revelation.

 

I love you! This comes from so many and yet so miss understood…for one Second I want to take a look at what I mean by understanding. I think we all can have the knowledge but understanding that knowledge is the fine line like wisdom. Wisdom is the application of knowledge and yet that is a very fine line and such is understanding.

 

I had the pleasure of meeting an inspiring man recently. He told me that many people when told I love you say I love you too very quickly as a push off and defensive action.

 

I heard what he said and paused and went home…Later that week I saw Hitch with Will Smith later (Amazing Movie!) Hitch at one point is telling his Ex-GF how he loves her she hears how he loves her and is overwhelmed by this love so much so that she says I LOVE YOU TOO! Notice it was a push off devise? Then Hitch says “I know you don’t love me as much as I love you but that’s ok”.

 

What is shocking here is I can totally see myself saying the same things as Hitch! Later that night I am laying in bed and thinking to my self and it hits me!

 

No one I have ever dated or been partnered with has ever actually loved me! I feel overwhelmingly sad and yet happy at the same moment…I understand from that moment on every relationship I will enter will be different.

 

Days pass and I start to think to my self about how many times I have said I love you to others as well…I ask my self “Am I cheeping the word Love when I am infatuated?” It hits me NO Michael your not! Why though?

 

Now let me explain a few things…Lust and infatuation are they the same? I have allot of people tell me yes however I understand this to be different…Lust is pure sexuality and once I am done having sex with you that lust is over yet when your infatuated and you have sex with the person the feeling of wanting to see them keeps going on.

 

So the revelation hit me! My lord Infatuation is the infancy of Love! Now if this is so this would describe allot! For instance why is it I can’t ever describe how I feel for someone that I love other than using the word I love…there are no words used to describe love and why is that? Because Love is an ever growing ever changing emotion intensified by time! That is why when you leave someone at the infatuation stage it doesn’t hurt as bad…because that is the infancy of love and it kills us when someone leaves us after a long time and why because love is intensified by time and it is an ever growing powerful emotion!

 

Once more time passes and someone says to me “Michael I am so glad I have you in my life” I pause and something does not sound right and wake up the next morning and I get what didn’t sound right!

 

I am no one’s and no one is mine! I am in shock it is not that I have him in my life but that he allows himself to be in my life everyday and yet he could be anywhere but with me…what a powerful complement to say he wants to grace me with his company!

 

Well guys I hope that was one intense understanding I came to…about love that is…