Personal Questions Emailed To Me

[SmallTownJohn]

Thanks again to anyone who has contacted me. I am in the process of answering everyone. Please remember I'm a fucker, not a writer. My composition style is shit! I know this. haha

 

My post today is to simply answer a few personal questions emailed to me. I will give you my best answers.

 

What are your physical insecurities?

 

HEIGHT! HEIGHT! HEIGHT!

 

I hate it. I get yelled at for slouching. I hate shopping for clothes. I hate towering over people. I'm long & gross with a massive skull & a flat ass. OH, to be 5'10"

 

PHOTOS!

 

I do not like posing for photos(see above again) I am so far from being a model. Having my ad photos taken always creeps me out. I feel so uncomfortable. I have no rhythm or game. I just let gravity help me fall from place to place. I'm so jealous that my partner is a jamming dancing fucker.

 

Height hating & photo taking = tons of arguments.

 

What can you tell us about your bf's current eye condition?

 

He has severe advanced open angle glaucoma(probably inherited from his father's side. We aren't sure who those people are)

 

His numbers are to be updated in June. I know his eyes are at least -9.5(one may be more) His cupping eye ratio(??) is either 8 or 8.5. He cannot wear glasses. He wears harder contact lens with either +2 or +2.5 reading glasses over them. His occular pressure began at high 30s. Reduced to teens upon a regiment of two expensive drops. It's back to 25/27(don't quote me on exact numbers) He suffers from migraines & neck pain. Rainy or overcast days are murder on him! He sees double or triple and I have to read everything for him on those days.

 

His near-sight is totally gone. He can make larger things out with reading glasses & lots of natural light. We are trying to keep his focus & keep his eyes from going totally light sensitive & rolling back in his head. He has some really cool far sight on moderately sunny days. Sometimes he can read billboards way in the distance. Things that I can't see. Cracks me up!

 

He is paralyzed outside at night, even in light. Streams & halos. He says "from the nipples down, I'm a solid B...from the nipples up, I'm a strong F-"

 

(only time I stopped to ask if it was ok to mention...bf said sure, fuck it!)

 

The only part he doesn't really discuss on the eye situation is his two doctors who have examined him like an alien, have asked repeatedly if he ever suffered a head injury or been mugged or beaten or accidents due to some excessive damage in the back of his eyes. He always tells them exactly what he knows...lots of plane rides, roller coasters and sinus meds in the past.

 

What he doesn't really say to anyone is, according to hazy family folklore, his Mother may or may not have tried to kill him when his was crawling & preparing to walk. Everyone on his maternal side is dead. His Mom ain't ever said shit. It was strong rumor from his aunt and his Grandmother's best friend way back in the day. His Mother is pretty fucking evil. So evil, he has made a comedy routine out of it for friends.

 

"Whose Mother dated a convicted killer? any other hands? no one? REALLY!? You pussies!"

 

What times do you enjoy most with him?

 

When we find a place in the suburbs with great sidewalks and clear paths and we just walk...HARD WALK...and talk & laugh & crack jokes. I love it anytime he feels secure away from the house to appear his normal confident self. I don't want him to be reclusive or scared to mix with the public. Standing still, he looks like your normal hot guy in his 40s. He fakes it well in shades. Move, read or ask him to see, then things may get weird & uncomfortable.

 

I love watching him get on a slick floor, put on headphones & sunglasses and funk boy dancing in low light. It's his strongest interpersonal time and it's fucking sexy as hell. It's his safe & strong world.

 

Lighter fare...what are your favorite foods in Atlanta if we ever go out?

 

Trout & apple salad at Art Smith's

Mongolian Beef from Little Bangkok

Tiny cheese puffs at Bacchanalia

Lobster mac at Chops Lobster Bar

Tons of stuff at Pricci

Massive chocolate. caramel, nut Fuji apple at Poor Calvin's

Japanese Napoleon at Genki Va-Hi

 

Favorite place for lunch anywhere? Least favorite place?

 

Favorite: Palace Cafe in New Orleans

Least: Those Palm restaurants

[Diverdan]

John,

Thanks for sharing... I feel for you and your partner. Has he considered getting a second opinion on his eye condition from some top notch experts in the field? I work with a lot of physicians and would be glad to ask them for some top notch eye physicians around the country without revealing anything about where you are or what the conditions are. I will probably send you a PM about this. Thinking of you guys and hoping that all is well.

DD

[bigvalboy]

I think that it is amazing that you can come to a forum and still be so open and honest about your life. It is a gift that you are able to share so much about yourself personally. I see where there are difficulties in your life and I can only say that your positive attitude will carry you far. I wish you and your partner only the best....and listen to DD, he is well connected and knows of what he speaks.

 

Ciao,

 

BVB

[SmallTownJohn]

Hey guys, Thank you so much. Let's us get to mid-June and I'll let you know ASAP. He is such a happy man when the weather is clear & his IOP is in check. It began to rise in the past three months, so that is what is scary. And the fact that one day, he attempted to speak and this weird five seconds of babble came out. Remember post-Grammys when that chick spoke in tongues during a live report on her local station??? It was EXACTLY like that. He said after brushing his teeth and bringing his head up from the basin, he felt a fuzzy feeling in his nose, lips, tongue and cheeks and not a headache, but a wah-wah sound. He walked in, spoke in tongues with his eyes sort of small and glassy...I said SIT THE FUCK DOWN! He wobbled over to a recliner and plopped down. Thirty seconds later, he was speaking normally with a "GOD-DAMN!!! Was from Exodus or what?"

 

Anyway, thanks again. My cock has got to work tonight.

 

My original addition to this thread was going to be FUCK, The Golden Boy guy on TV is the hottest guy I have seen a long time! My penis went bezerk in my jeans in the 15 minutes I saw this show. Please someone tell him I want to jam my dick in his ass!!

[seeker630]

Hey guys, Thank you so much. Let's us get to mid-June and I'll let you know ASAP. He is such a happy man when the weather is clear & his IOP is in check. It began to rise in the past three months, so that is what is scary. And the fact that one day, he attempted to speak and this weird five seconds of babble came out. Remember post-Grammys when that chick spoke in tongues during a live report on her local station??? It was EXACTLY like that. He said after brushing his teeth and bringing his head up from the basin, he felt a fuzzy feeling in his nose, lips, tongue and cheeks and not a headache, but a wah-wah sound. He walked in, spoke in tongues with his eyes sort of small and glassy...I said SIT THE FUCK DOWN! He wobbled over to a recliner and plopped down. Thirty seconds later, he was speaking normally with a "GOD-DAMN!!! Was from Exodus or what?"

 

Anyway, thanks again. My cock has got to work tonight.

 

My original addition to this thread was going to be FUCK, The Golden Boy guy on TV is the hottest guy I have seen a long time! My penis went bezerk in my jeans in the 15 minutes I saw this show. Please someone tell him I want to jam my dick in his ass!!

 

Did he go to doctor after that event? It sounds neurological.

 

Also, has he considered surgery for the glaucoma?

 

(agree with you about Golden Boy too. )

[Lookin]

Great that you've got your partner's back so nicely. http://www.boytoy.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/thumbsup.png

 

Last year, I learned the hard way to pay close attention to IOP. Mine was acute closed-angle glaucoma. It came up fast and unexpectedly and, by the time I had surgery on the beleaguered eye, most of the optic nerve was gone, never to return. Unless maybe there's a stem cell out there somewhere with my name on it.

 

I hadn't thought of braille dicks before. Good idea.

 

In the meantime, I figure I'll just officially become a size queen. http://www.boytoy.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/rolleyes.gif

 

 

( Call me!

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[SmallTownJohn]

Did he go to doctor after that event? It sounds neurological.

 

Also, has he considered surgery for the glaucoma?

 

(agree with you about Golden Boy too. )

 

And the gay kid on Shameless(sorry don't watch it. have seen photos) since he has filled out a bit. I'd work his insides out too!!!!

 

Appears we may be headed the neurological route. This last visit there was a starter discussion on a laser procedure. It's not the opening holes(he said opening holes, huh huh) for drainage bit though

[SmallTownJohn]

Great that you've got your partner's back so nicely. http://www.boytoy.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/thumbsup.png

 

Last year, I learned the hard way to pay close attention to IOP. Mine was acute closed-angle glaucoma. It came up fast and unexpectedly and, by the time I had surgery on the beleaguered eye, most of the optic nerve was gone, never to return. Unless maybe there's a stem cell out there somewhere with my name on it.

 

I hadn't thought of braille dicks before. Good idea.

 

In the meantime, I figure I'll just officially become a size queen. http://www.boytoy.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/rolleyes.gif

 

 

( Call me!

http://im1.freeforumzone.it/up/16/93/375652776.gif)

 

His optic nerve is "very thin" So funny though, when this all started the first time, I had a client who gave me a small sack of Primo Hydro 420 of the Gods. He smoked it for two days and on the afternoon of the third smoking day, he got really toasted & we paid a Pearle Vision for an IOP only. It was 13 His optha had it down to 28 a week before. Month later, back to 23 at his regular doc. He asked doc what was the number he hoped to achieve with meds? 12-15 The wonders of nature! But, my partner isn't really a smoker. Stuffs him up.