Ive known this escort 5 years total. Weve been real good friends for 2 years. See each other once a month. Ive really developed a real caring about him. He got injured in a scuffle and I flew out to his city to be there for him. My problem is this------at times Id say "Bless you for being you and for our lasting friendship.",,,we have exchanged the "love " word often. BUT i am older and sometimes when I initiate the sex, it upsets him that I just am not totally "ready"---sprung.....He interprets that to mean Im not physically attracted to him......NOT true but I need a little touching, feeling, deep kissing. you know...stumulation, but he doesnt like to do that I guess. If he'd just PARTICIPATE, Im fine. He'll "forever and always." to statements Id make. He says I love you...Ive been there for him in issues of substances. Ive given him lots of things, gifts etc cuz I love the guy...Id really try to make it lasting.. BUT always pay everything. I know Im a client but my birthday was last week...He called sure but not even a card! He has said...you are the best ting I have in my life,,,,Of course I melt...Our deep friendship is that type I could follow as a real love. Once again Im older...hes 27. BUT when we are together doing something, its like we can read each others mind. There are a few times when id iniatiate sex and hed get so upset that hed run out of the shower or off the couch cuz he thought I was making him uncomfortable. he wont say why. Im a lost puppy. I pay the fee regardless. but he would never come back around and be tender, caressing...treat me like a special guy
