CayCar

Honestly I had decided not to post anything about the breakup on main stream social media because our personal matters didn't seem like something to talk about in a public forum... but I understand he is grieving and in a lot of pain because the truth is that I did break up with him... My reality seems to be much different than what he sees, feels and believes but I cannot dictate his truth. My truth is that the relationship wasn't the most uplifting or positive space for me... I didn't leave him to pursue a career, I didn't use him, the relationship wasn't a "convenience" until it wasn't or anything like that. I was genuinely in love and then I genuinely wasn't after many things that don't need to be shared and personal reasons that are between me and him. The short of it, though, is that I don't need a reason to not want to be in a relationship anymore. If i am unhappy then I deserve to find that happiness and he deserves the truth from me as well and the opportunity to move on and find someone to be mutually happy with. I can't stop anyone from having their perspective or narrative... but I know that mine is just as valid and real and not borne of malice or anger or hate but of genuine desire for both of us to have the best lives we can. I will say, I saw a post of his recently stating that I made him sell his house or something and now he's homeless... he listed his house on the market and sold it and decided to move after we had already broken up, I didn't make him sell his house... so there is an incongruency with his narrative and the objective reality of what happened. Regardless I am not here to make any stink or cause drama... I just have been really sad to receive scathing messages from random people saying how terrible I am for what I did to him and wanted to state, at least in part, my narrative... All I want for him is to be able to move on and be happy in his life and try to find the same for myself. I wasn't happy in our relationship and I know that a functioning relationship takes two. We only posted the "social media" or "hallmark" moments on Instagram... so people don't see anything else.

Whole thing is kinda sad... I don't really want to talk about it but if we meet for massage and you want to know I am an open book and will answer questions, just not publicly, its more of a private matter to be honest.

Hey all!!! I was googling my name recently (It's me Cayman lol) and I found this page! So I am not on any of the sites and have no links to schedule massage because I usually just schedule through referrals or if I am able to see your message on IG I try to respond! (Sometimes the whole message request and hidden message system on IG confuses the hell out of me). Anyways, I have read your thread and if you want to schedule massage in Los Angeles/West Hollywood, I am pretty much always available to schedule and I just finished setting up my in apartment studio which is a really cool and zen space and I have more spa options like hot towels and percussion therapy as well as aroma therapy etc. I still do outcalls in the area as well, but not as often. Salt Lake is still a place I travel to on occasion but with acting taking up more time in my schedule it has become increasingly more difficult to travel out there. I also, as mentioned before, am no longer with my past partner and so not quite as incentivized to be there as often as every month like I was doing before. I still have my massage studio up there and will inform on IG when I am headed up to work there in Salt Lake so be on the look out for that. If you want to schedule with me in LA my best suggestion is to message me on Instagram again and I will be on the lookout for your message in my requests and we can go from there. I hope you can understand me being reticent to give out my personal phone number on a site like this, but I will most likely give you my number if you reach out to me on IG and are serious about scheduling. About my massage, I am licensed and have been trained professionally. I have been practicing on my own since 2019 and licensed since 2018. I LOVE massage and I love the connection and harmony it brings. I truly do care and want to heal. I am not on apps or websites like masseur finder or rent masseur because I do not provide escort services and do not want to conflagrate my massage with that. That being said I am extremely caring and my massages are intimate and connected by nature as that is necessary for a quality massage. I love what I do and I try to stay as grounded and down to earth as possible. To whomever I offended I am sorry I came across as arrogant, that was never my intention and I am sorry. I would love to talk and hear what I said or did to you and hopefully communicate it out! I hate leaving bad Karma out there in the world! Thank you all, Cay P.S. I included a photo from a recent shoot I did with Andrew Gin that hasn't been posted anywhere so you can know it's me and not some rando trying to post as me for some reason.