Here goes. I spent most of a day plus an afternoon with Ford_Ford, last year, and have thought about this man more than any other since. I'm not gay, but was totally enamored with his manliness. That's why I hired him. I didn't exactly catch feelings; I think I caught more the sense of what it's like to be him, and THEN I caught my own caretaker feelings about the fella. Just breeze through the following, ratfuck your snark, and be as kind as you can be:
Yes, he has sweetness about him. I wouldn't say, emotionally, he's sweet. His momma clearly loved/shone on him.
If you fetishize, as I as a long ago fat kid have, aspects of the male body [particularly when they fuse you with your very manly strong silent combat-constricted father], like hairy mounded chest and proportionate strong delts, upper and lower arms, thighs, calves, then go to your guy.
I do kinda think he's tempermentally a bottom, as someone above thought. I, because I wanted to smash together my fantasies with what I could match them with [opportunity presented itself later in my life], I encouraged him to use me in a way I actually abhor. I mean, I let him be what seemed like his idea of the top he thought I wanted. Penis jammed down throat, dick pumping hard and fast without regard to ANYONE's sensations. I mean, men, gay-porn-perfect-inflected imaginary sex. Nothing remotely arousing to me.
If you get what that means.
Ford is, I think, phobic about germs, contamination, butt stuff, cleanliness. Saw lots of overlapping instances of these propensities.
I loved most of all sneaking grabs of his absolutely perfectly pivotal ass, rounded, hairy, tight. I mean, I don't know if you have to be a top to love this ass, but one touch tells you how special it is. That was actually enough for me, though I felt my touch was just barely acceptable to him, but I guess I didn't linger too long. I'm pretty receptive of some wee things.
Fusay as his age cohort might be with age differentials. I am nearly 50 years older than he is. Though I felt he completely got that, I think he's a bit too self-absorbed, narcissistic, socially robotic [the language barrier is fucking enormous with this jazzed up guy], wary from being on the DL with his Brazilian family. Or, I'm assuming, at least the women in his family.
His Insta doesn't work to hide gayness, but doesn't foregournd the hot fucking part of gayness either. He so wants to be seen as a kind of quite high-end, well-healed flaneur.
He looks way more high end primped and groomed he did than a year ago
He has, I think, decided to pursue a life of accumulating funds while sending some money home. He didn't finish a business degree. I can imagine, from looking at his travel locations in the last year, that he has encountered, and perhaps established ongoing relations with, guys with the big money. This guy is [at least for some people] an ideal kind of man. Why wouldn't you pay for that, if.......you longed for it, and had the big money?
So all the travel BS is related to money, although I couldn't begin to know how.
I think this guy would make a great model for romances--in whatever form that would manifest today.
Although I can't take, maybe, sole credit, I emailed him a couple examples of how he might better show off his haiiry manly muscley proportionate body. I do think his pictures--not the quality of them--are more alluring to frank lovers of this big full-service maleness he can display.
I worry you can't keep what he's up to going for an extended period.
So, if you see him, worship and be kind to him.
